I just found out that a good friend is HIV positive and I’m still in shock. It has never been more clear that unintended consequences can be so severe. It was something that was unexpected and we are still reeling from the shock of it.

Barring the small possibility that it was a false positive, it is of no use as to delve into the causes of it too deeply because there are some things which cannot be undone and no one is immune to the unintended consequences of their actions.

This serves as a brusque wake up call for all of us to be more tempered and cautious with our decisions and attempt to consider the future repercussions instead of immediate results. It might be prudent to request a partner to be tested prior to engaging in relations so as not to possibly find oneself in this painful predicament.

Everything has turned upside down and I’m stil unable to process the reality of it. I’m still in denial and hoping that it might be a false positive instead of a definitive ruling. I’m unable to say how I will be able to handle it since I just found out today but I can say that I’m feeling incredibly bewildered and sorrowful.

I can only imagine how hard it is for my friend and whatever I feel about it may be processed privately or internally or with my own de facto support circle but it is important that irregardless of how I feel that I maintain a brave front in order to be able to give due encouragement, support, and comfort.

The priority right now is to see how I may be able to be of help. This event is really a sobering reminder that there are times when unintended consequences are so grave that they cannot be ignored and end up being a life-defining turning point.

Moving forward, it would pay to think twice before we undertake anything and try to ensure or try to endure that we have all our bases covered before moving forward with any endeavour–because some effects are irreversible.

(c) Niconica 2013

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